The amusement park opened yesterday for the season, yay! Um, not! Well I enjoy going to the amusement park but not to fond of the rides. The only rides that I seem to really enjoy are the water ones. You can also get some good people watching assessment in. This is where they should have taken us in college to assess people, not the student union.
My life seems to be a big emotional rollercoaster at times (alot of times) and that may be why I'm opposed to rollercoasters at amusement parks. Now, I will give the disclaimer that my unwanted guest is here and that doesn't help with the emotions. It seems to always show up at the wrong time...but then again, when is the right time?
Days like today when my emotion is everywhere, I KNOW I need to get up and out of the house but I don't. I'm a great host of pity parties where there is a party of one and I'm not proud of that but I am aware of what happens.
I've started this past week in full mode of my vision book. For me it seems like the older I get, the less my life goals are obtainable. I think about where I want to be in life and what I want but life sometimes seems like I'm at a deadend and there is no way out. My hope is that this vision book will help put the fire back in my life and give me something to reach for in life and to remember.
I am the daughter of the most high and He knows the plan for my life and future. He has good things in store for me and my current situation is not my future. God wants my emotions to be stable and not every which direction. I must be content with my life and hold on to the promise that God will never leave me and I'm not alone and he has more for me.
Isn't it funny that we Social Workers are so use to developing treatment plans for others but we never develop one for ourselves.
ReplyDeleteSomething to think about: If we want something in our lives we have never had before, we have to do something different to get it. I am not nearly as spiritual as you, I use you as one of my spiritual role models. But this I believe, God helps those who need it but I also think he expects us to help ourselves when we can.
Think about it, develop a treatment plan for yourself. Small, realistic goals.
You are an amazing woman and I am happy to have you in my life.
and p.s. I am not going on that roller coaster you have pictured on your blog either!