I've always wanted to go to Arizona. Especially the Grand Canyon. I didn't get to the Canyon this time but I will one day.
People always talk about Arizona's sunsets, deserts, hot weather, mountains and so much more. I just couldn't wait to experience "the life". I just knew it was going to be beautiful and I wasn't disappointed.
I went out with some acquaintances before my trip and I shared where I was going and they ask why I wanted to go to Phoenix? Um, really? They told me that there is nothing there and it's just dusty and only people with money have grass because they can afford to get grass laid. They tell me not to drink the water.
Man, some people know how to put a damper on your day. Kind of funny, I heard them but I wasn't listening and it didn't rain on my parade.
I had been nervous the whole time about the trip and really hadn't gotten excited until the night before my flight and I stayed over my Bestie's house. Okay, the highlight for me was that I got to stay over my Bestie's house in his bed with him. Man, I wish he had feelings for me, sure sucks but anyways. He got a haircut for the trip and it was super sexy. I really liked it. At that moment, looking at his new haircut, I was reminded why I loved short, clean cut, do's on dudes. Being in KC, you forgot who you are and get accustom to city living. Well, I feel like I did. But his haircut made me want to throw my...at him.
I got over to his house around 11:30p and we went to bed around Midnight to get up at 3a to catch our flight. I would have made it to his house sooner but I had shaved my legs and I couldn't get them to stop bleeding. That's a whole different story.
On top of bleeding everywhere, I had started to not feel very well. I thought it was just allergies and nerves. Then my neck issue started to flare up again. Why me Lawd, Why!!!! I will say that when I was laying next to him, I felt okay. It's crazy how he still makes everything feel better when I'm not in the best of moods or feeling well. Ugh!
I was super excited and wide awake and so ready for this trip with my Bestie. It was my first time!!! Woot, woot!
Friday started off great when he went and paid for my gas and surprised me with a Valentine's black rose (this will be a different blog). Oh I wanted to kiss him because I was so full of gratitude. Man, if he was mine, let's just say a wake up call would have happened.
Now to the airport. We were at the airport so early that the gates weren't open yet. How wild is that. This was the first time I've gotten to fly with him. Omgosh! I was so pumped and he was so tired. I'm sure I was getting on his nerves because I just wanted to keep taking pictures and he finally was like okay kind of like let's get these pics over with so you can let me sleep.
This is us on the bus that takes us from the parking lot to the terminal. Good morning er'body!
This was the pic that he was like, let's do this because I was bugging the mess out of him. Ugh, I have such a fat face. I hate it.
This is what he wanted to do is sleep. This is where my heart was happy, next to him. Even more content, sleeping next to him. My SHB and MTB!!! Always my C.D.
The sky was so beautiful in the morning. Taking pics with your phone, you sometimes don't get the best quality. So sorry in advance.
I wish I had a quality camera. As soon as I stepped off the airplane, it was so beautiful. Mountains, palm trees, cactus' and more. It was so surreal.
This is Camel back mountain Pretty mountains everywhere
At Garee's them apartment
It was great weather to go for a walk or just to be outside. So I went for a stroll and took some pics of cactus' and my feet in the beautiful green soft grass.
I got to see where my Bestie went to school, his stomping ground, old job, where he lived...I'm in Phoenix. I can't believe it.
We went visiting and driving around the city. It was just so cool. The weather was soooo nice, I could have stayed forever but I'm not a heat person.
We ended our night babysitting his niece and nephew over his mom's house. That's a different story within itself.
He melted my heart. He went and read to them and when he was done, he asked if I wanted something to drink. I had actually fell asleep on the couch and my throat was ache pretty bad and with my neck hurting, it gives me headaches so sleeping helps me not to feel anything. We go into the kitchen to get some tea and talk. I felt like we were parents and now it's our adult time.
He suggested that I warm up the tea and I did that and it made my throat feel so good. After we finished with the tea, we started looking at pictures. It's so crazy how he really hasn't changed much. There are differences but over all, yep that's my C.D.
We didn't get back to his friend's house until about 11:30p or so.
Everyone was in bed and I stayed on the couch and wrote and cried. I wasn't feeling good and I started to get in my feelings. Then their other friend didn't start communicating that she was coming over until approx. 1:30a. Everyone was asleep but I got the notification. She got there around 2:30a and was lost. I was so so so tired, not feeling well, and sleepy which made me so cranky.
This is what I wrote on 2/15/14 at 1:13a:
I feel like living is overrated, especially when it seems like you're contaminated with an infectious disease, please don't sneeze. The love I have to give I thought was endless but now I'm scared that the well is going dry, that's why I cry. No more pain that's not reality when you're living with a heart that's been broken from morality. I fucking love him excuse my french but the anger is running from my lips. It seems like everyday the pain gets worst, I don't know what's worse, living in hell for eternity or loving with all your heart just to get it torn apart.
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