My Place

"Place in this World" by Michael W. Smith was a song we sung in youth choir at church my senior year in high school. 

We all go through life looking for our place in this world.  Some find it and some continue to roam and look.  I work with people who do not know their place in this world and they are just living.  I get sad because many of them don't have an outlet or hope for their life to get better. 

One of my kids who is 15yrs old just moved from the area.  She wasn't too happy about it and I was letting her know that life is so much better than how she is living now.  This young lady has so much potential but she does not see it in herself.  She will post on fb everyday about the drama, boyfriend issues, who wants to fight her and she wants to fight, how she's crying every night, and on and on.  As I tried to encourage her and get her excited about her new environment, she says, I like the drama and I don't know how to live without it.  My heart just sanked. 

However, I too understand how she feels.  Not on the same magnitude.  You just get so complacent in your environment and you learn to function in your mess or comfort zone and fear of the unknown keeps you stuck even when the unknown could be so much better for you.

By the age of 30, Jesus was walking in God's will for his life.  I think about that all the time.  As I've seen this age come and go, I sometimes feel that I'm looking for my place in this world.  When I'm focused on Him, He shows me how I am in the right place at the right time.

The life of a social worker is never done.  I personally get burnt out and look to Jesus, family and friends for the pick me up to keep going.  You get to a point where you just don't want to work with people, be around people, or talk to people.  That might be why I REALLY enjoy being at home by MYSELF.  Which I'm fully aware that's the enemy working because we need people.

Lately, there have been people coming into my life that need little things (well to me) and I've been taking joy and giving them the advice and resources needed.  I feel so complete when I'm able to help people who need a little advice or assistance but want to do it themselves.  I was just referenced last week as someone's guidance counselor.  Now someone who has a degree in that probably wouldn't be so happy but one of the many hats of a social worker.

I guess I'll wrap up in saying, I hope that I'm where I'm suppose to be in life.  We all want to feel and be needed by others even though we say we don't or it doesn't matter.  For me, I want to also be making a difference.  I don't want my life to be invalid or pointless.