Sometimes, I don't give myself enough credit of how strong I really am. I think it's because I'm so tired of being strong that when I'm in my "give up" mode. I don't see myself as strong. I've always had to be strong for someone else. Then as a Social Worker, people seem to always depend on you. They think your judgement is better than theirs. Which sometimes they are right but only right in whose eyes?
It's crazy how strong my clients think I am. They want to be like me and have my strength when in reality, I think I'm so weak. As a Social Worker, you wear many different hats. As an advocate for many of my clients, I will say I exhibit a confident that I don't do for myself and I try and get things done for them that they can't do for themselves. And I typically do. I think they see that confident as strength which that could be one of the many looks of strength.
I will shoot bullets to help my clients get the help or services they need. Yep, watch out now! It sometimes amazes me how confident I can be when helping my clients but it doesn't come out when it's time for me to advocate on my own behalf. Why is that? Why are we able to stand up for other people or do things for other people that we can't do for ourselves?
I'm waiting for Boaz to come and take my struggles away. I want him to be strong for me, make those calls that need to be done, take care of business that needs handling and the list can go on. Is that fair that I want this from him. I want him to lead and I just want to follow him. But what if he's tired too? What if he doesn't want to always be strong but wants a woman his Ruth to be strong for him? Man, things that make you go hummm!
I have to realize that I'm stronger than I think. I can advocate on my behalf, I need to speak up, not let things get me down that I have no control over. I'm stronger, I have favor, I am loved, I am...
Some days it harder than others but that's going to come and go. Believing in myself and doubting myself. Through it all, there is social worker's inside me that is ready to fight on her own behalf. I can fight for me, there is nothing wrong with that. I have enough! I am woman hear me roar, Rooaarr!
Don't work yourself up, when God is working it out! There is too much God in you, for you to always be down and out. Kick the devil in the teeth and praise your way through. One small positive thought this morning can change your whole day. Start it right! No matter the situation, never let your emotions overpower your intelligence! @REALTALKKIM
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