There was some sad news yesterday and I cried today about it. So the Az trip is going to be a week long trip and I currently do not have the days for that. Then on top of that, I'm trying to implement my rules and regulations to my staff starting this week. I just don't think that I will be able to make it. It hurts just to write it and I'm tearing up now.
First, I love spending time with my Bestie. Secondly, I feel honored to be asked to go on this trip with him and his best friend. You can have friends ad be cool with people and not be invited to spend time with their family and/or friends. Then on top of that, their friend to ask for you to come along. Man, that means a lot to me. That's how I strive to be. And third, I've been wanting to go to Az.
Maybe this is the year of saying no to the things I want. It seems to be starting out that way. I want to do so many things but unfortunately will not be able to do because of the new job. I'm not blaming the new job because I'm grateful for God opening doors and moving me.
His best friend is just like me, so I know she wants some D time. So this will be perfect for her. She can spend the quality time she needs with him. He needs this time and so does she.
I guess if it's meant for me to go to Az, it will happen. No this is not a pity party as I'm so good at having and hosting but I've been thinking a lot today.
God will give me the desires of my heart as he has so often, I just need to start seeking him for the things that he wants me to do, places to go and with whom. I have a tendency of just doing and going. I can't do what I want if it wasn't for him.
He want's all of me. I need to stop neglecting him and focus on him and I believe that my struggles won't be so bad.
Thank you Lord for your guidance and your word.
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