"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Cor 10:13
So I haven't been on his page in over a month at least. Today I broke that today. I'm in tears right now because I'm upset that I got on his page. I was doing so well for so long. I miss keeping up with him. Now that I don't see him everyday, I feel like I don't know what's going on with him. Is this what's suppose to happen? I keep reaching out to him because I want him in my life. I want to know about how he's doing. Especially during this time right now, I just don't want him to feel like he's alone even though I was just where he was and coming out of it as of 3 days ago.
I feel like I just relapsed today. I had a anxiety attack and everything. I just want him in my life. He would say that he is but not how I want him to be. The messed up thing about this is, I did okay with being on his page until I went further back and then I couldn't take it. It's my fault though. I should have just stayed within this month NO...I shouldn't have gotten on his page.
Man, all my feelings have surfaced. I know how he is feeling that's what sucks. Only God can heal him and I know there is nothing I can really do but I just want to love him back to health but it's not my responsibility.
Lord I need you.
I thought he was the one but his heart did not belong to me but someone else. My prayer is that in our hearts, Lord you will be that special thing. Lord hide my heart so deep in you that I will not be blinded by love but only see the love that you have for me. Lord, I need you, please hear my tears as my words are everywhere.
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