My Mister

I wrote in an earlier post about waiting for my Boaz as I studied Ruth in bible study.  We'll my friend Tori sparked some hot topics while posting about "Adam".  You can read more as she started a blog this week at Awaiting Adam.  She posted a intercessory prayer to God for her "Adam" that I will repost now as a reminder for me to continue to stand in the gap for my "Mister"...

"Tonight I pray for my Adam. I pray that God will continue to lead, guide and protect you; that the Holy Spirit will minister to your every need; that you remain faithful and steadfast to the call of God on your life and continue to walk in His Will for your life as it will soon effect OUR lives; that you are confidently waiting for me, knowing that I am praying and faithfully waiting for you....I love you...."

I used to pray for Mister and became idle in standing in the gap.  I started praying some years back in college when a friend shared how she prayed for her Mister I believe before they were married and she found out later that the night she prayed for him, he was picked up by two young ladies who mentioned to him that they were going to rape him.  I don't recall why they didn't but it stuck how to me how she was obedient and prayed before they met and were together and it was her prayer that moved God.  It just shows how important intercessory prayer is and standing in the gap for anyone, not just your special someone is SO IMPORTANT NOW than before.

As I wait, I must take the information I "know" so well and apply it to my spirit man!  I must TRULY be the woman of God that I pray about for God, Mister, and me.  I must walk in the shoes that my Heavenly Father has given me as heir to His thrown.  I must turn from the torn pieces of cloth that the enemy tries to make be believe I am.

I am:

•    The daughter of the Most High
•    Victorious in ALL areas of my life
•    Loved by my Heavenly Father
•    Forgiven of ALL my sins
•    Made whole
•    Worthy to be loved
•    Redeemed
•    Somebody
•    Beautiful
•    Prosperious in ALL areas of my life

I will admit, it was hard to come up with the ten things I know I am in the Lord.  As I work on my self-esteem and worth.  I pray that I will be able to see with my spiritual eyes my true worth and value as my Heavenly Father sees me.  I pray that I will allow God to work in my life and prepare me to be what he has called me to be (wife, mother, caregiver, ect).  Lord I thank you in advance for your love, mercy and grace.  I thank you for Godly friends and support.  I pray that you will increase my circle of Godly friends, increase healthy relationships with men and women, increase my wisdom and discernment, and increase the love you have installed in me for your people.  Remove in me those things that are not fruit of the spirit, those things that are not of you.  Replace the things that are not of you with things that are pure, just, loyal, and noble.   I love you Lord.

What's Your Poison?

Poison according to Dictionary.com is a substance with an inherent property that tends to destroy life or impair health.

With that being said, FOOD and Sweet Tea (according to my doctor's nurse).  I love to eat all the wrong things at all the wrong places at all the wrong times.  Point blank!  However, it has taken over my happiness for a VERY long time.  I can say without hesitation that I'm not a fan of dieting, exercising, or healthy people that don't understand why I'm not a fan.  I'm one of a few people who have tried dieting, invented their own dieting efforts, exercised until it felt like a leg fell off and still battling the IH syndrome (impaired health).

I was reading my good friend Pam's page.  You should read her blog, she has an amazing testimony.  She is an amazing friend, a super social worker, an excellent wife and mom, a perfect scrapbooker (who got me started) and a survivor of cancer. While talking about her steps in moving forward, she mentioned a website called myfitnesspal.  Usually when I see anything about fitness or being healthy, I blackout in the mind (if that makes sense).  It doesn't register and I keep going BUT something drew me into the website.  Maybe the word Free, maybe the word support group...I really don't know.   So I signed up and started Monday.  If you decide to join, look me up at Heavenseyes3 and let's start encouraging each other.  We are all in this race called life together and we need each other, spiritually, physically, and mentally.

I'm still not healthy nor do I like to keep a food diary.  I haven't wrapped my mind around the concept yet because I don't want to set myself up to fail like before so I've been trying to keep this non-chalant attitude of "If I lose weight, great/super or if I don't, cool".  Overall, I know that I know that I know that you know and everyone knows that I need to lose weight, get healthy but MOST important, see myself as God see's me and love me for who God has made me.

My food diary (my mom gave me) and inputting items at myfitness pal while cooking dinner.  Shocker I know!

So let's get this party started...Go exercise kitty!

Now with it just being me, I don't cook alot but I really enjoying cooking.  I know weird huh?  I usually get my food fast on the way home at one of the many fast food places on Food Lane America.  When it's just you, it seems so pointless alot of times to spend so much time in the kitchen and dirty up dishes.  I used to invite my aunt and the family over for dinner and play games and loved it.  I was always trying new recipes on them.  

 But I'm worthy to treat myself to a home cooked meal and need to start doing it more often.  I would probably save a ton of money.  So on my first night of watching what I'm eating--No not the "see-food" diet as I would call it but really being conscience of what goes in my tummy.  I fixed, Salmon over white rice (with a little spray butter) and steamed broccoli.  It was great!

I worked out on the Wii for almost 30 mins last night-26 mins.  I waited so late to start moving that I was ready to go to bed.

There is a song that we used to sing in church (I had a solo back in elementary) and the words say...
Please be patient with me, God is not through with me yet
Please be patient with me, God is not through with me yet
When God get's through with me, When God get's through with me
I shall come forth, I shall come forth as pure gold.

Oh, wait, youtube it, duh...