Quality Time with Him

You invited me to church and I didn't want to go,
I felt so bad when I said no.
It hurt my heart when you said, "I wanted you to go",
but I couldn't go and face this new girl so.
I don't want to share you with anyone else just yet,
and definitely not see the girl you want to wed.

Dinner and a movie is what we did,
I'm so proud that I did not chip in.
I didn't think twice and it felt so nice,
it was great to spend the evening with you last night.
I know we are just friends how can I forget,
as I think about the other girl you just met.

I need to set more strict boundaries which is so hard
but if I don't, I'm going to keep falling like a retard.
I'm stronger than this, this much I know
but when your hearts involved it makes you weaker than snow.

I enjoy your friendship and I don't want to lose it
but if I keep acting like a maniac, you're going to duece it.
As the weekend comes to an end and I wish we had more time,
I'm already looking forward to next time.

My HEART...

My heart hurts because I'm sad,

it even hurts because I'm glad.

I received an answer that I already knew

but hearing it still made me blue.

Deep down inside is where the answered lied

but I played with my flesh and started to cry.

 

He found someone that makes him blush,

when I heard the news, I was just crushed.

I watched as he glowed,

when he talked about her so.

My feelings were true,

I was happy for my boo

because I understood,

how she made him feel so good.

 

The things he feels for her,

are the same things I feel about him.

Wanting to do better, the feeling of being alive

and those butterflies deep down inside.

He wonders if she's the one,

but hesistates because she's too young.

His heart wants to pursue her,

his inner self is saying is it true girl.

Yet fear has control

and sometimes it's hard to let go.

I know this is so true

because this is how I felt about you too.

 

Lord I'm on my knees begging you please

to take these feelings for him away from me.

Let me be the friend he needs

in good times, bad times or whatever it may be.

 

Lord please forgive me of my little faith,

continue to keep me in your Mercy and Grace.

 

Thank you for loving me despite what I do.

thank you for forgiving me for not following you.

 

Prepare me Lord as I wait,

keep me on the narrow and straight.

You are the potter and I am the clay,

Lord mold and make me new each and everyday.