It's the new year, it's 2014 and I have no feelings about it. Weird, I know.
I haven't been excited or happy but more cautious! I just don't know what to expect for this new year. I'm scared to make any resolution or to look forward to the new year. I'm not making a resolution because I have no energy or drive to clean up my house let alone make some dyer change in my life to better me.
Today has just been another day. I've been thinking waaay to much on things I told myself I wouldn't. I can't help it I'm not a side chick, I just care a lot.
As I was thinking and reading people's fbook page about the new year. People have been excited and positive about the year to come. I have secretly been commenting in my head negative comments. I don't know why. I don't know why I'm so reluctant to hope for the best for the new year. The only thing I can think of is because it ended sadly for me. I can't really say it ended sadly but the last 3 months have been emotionally challenging. I know I only caused this upon myself but I'm only human right.
Last week, I had dinner with a few girls and of course the talk went toward men and how single women like most of us struggle with relationships and finding good men. I went on to share (which I think this a lot but have never said it outloud) but I think it's a hopeless situation and I don't have hope that I'll ever get married. One girl pats me on the back (which I wanted to hit the mess out of her). I don't need a pat, I'm not a freakin' kid. I think I tend to act hopeful because people in my life are hopeful for me and everyone tries to be hopeful together but in reality...
Anyways, I come across this post on fbook about anticipation for 2014. See below...
Today I am praying that each of us would have a sense of anticipation about 2014 would bring in the area of personal transformation. I don't know what needs transformed most in your life, but I do know that the atmosphere of expectancy is the breeding ground of miracles! I am praying that each of us would expect God to do great things in us, to us and through us in 2014, and that we would be diligent in acting upon those expectations.
Wow, expectancy (hope) is the breading ground of miracles. Ouch, all up and down on me!
Guess I better re-check my rebellion, lol!
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